frustrations

i'm getting really frustrated at the lack of supplies around here. i see things that i want to make all the time, online or in catalogs, or even just in my head, but i am constantly restsricted by the resources that i do not have to use. in fact, this is one of the biggest motivations for me to be looking elsewhere for emloyment.... ok, maybe not the biggest, but it's a part of that all.

this year for Christmas, i wanted to sew tote bags for a bunch of friends. you know, i'd fill them with a bottle of wine, a box of cookies, a pretty card and a few other goodies, and everyone would love them and then maybe my friends would start carrying their own bags to the grocery store instead of using those horrid plastic bags, and everyone would be happy! but when i began the search for great fabric, i realized that i would have to order fabric online, and that is frustrating in and of itself because you can only see a little swatch of fabric and cannot tell what the scale is or the texture or even the true color!

i need a bigger city. (ha! bigger city. hello, i need a city).

i cannot even find a thin velvet ribbon to tie in my j.crew driving mocs, to replace the toggles (which fell out in the wal-mart parking lot, sadly)! online is my only option.

i suppose this is only my own fault, so i'll stop complaining and try to spend the rest of the morning enjoying my peppermint latte and thinking about all the positive aspects of living small-town life....